So its been almost a term since I last posted. But I am posting now not becuase you are all fans and
I'm supplying you with stuff to keep you interested, I'm posting to vent.
I. Feel. Like. Shit.
Why?
Because I am so unorganised its painful (literally, I have a headacke due to lack of sleep)
I didn't hand my Uni work in on time. I don't want to fail and redo these subjects if I can. I feel unappreciated, unmotivated and angry at myself for my lack of organisation.
I even had to cancel seeing my girlfriend's performance to do Uni work and sleep in. I am a jerkface with a captial J.
In addition, tonight I have to look after my grumpy grandfather who is annoying and is depressed. Yeah I should feel sorry for him because he's lost the ability to move properly and he can't read and all that jazz. Yes I feel sorry for him, but at the moment I am just annoyed at how depressing his life is. All he does is nothing. Nothing but sit. Sit and complain. Why can't he do something about his life.
He says he can't walk, but he walks around the house all the time.
He says he can't read, but we gave him things to help him read.
He shits himself and pees himself because he can no longer feel it coming.
He constantly tells us he is not sleeping when he closes his eyes, then wakes up without knowing where he is.
His life is so depressing. If I were to be in his position I would still be doing things. Thinking about things. He does nothing. All he does is eat, sleep, grumble and shit.
If I were him, I'd think my life isn't worth living.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
How the world will fall into an enevitable horrible future and how I will use my powers of design to help change it...hopefully
Hello everyone who believes I ignore this blog. It is I, AGAIN.
So recently at Uni I was shown this video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLBE5QAYXp8
And aside from the annoying american accent of the speaker, her over use of loaded language and the simplistic and sometimes inaccurate explanations,
I TOTALLY AGREE WITH HER.
Basically what she said is that the way business uses resources at the moment it completely wasteful. We take our resources, we turn them into things we need, we buy the things we need, we use the things we need and all the rest if discarded.
So lets take a look at all the stuff we throw out:
Bottles, plastic bags, cardboard, broken plates, bowls and other cutlery, food that has gone bad, tissues, tins and various seeds.
So after a quick analyse of what we've actually thrown out I have come to a conclusion that 90% of it (or round abouts) is packaging. So this got me thinking even more, what exactly does packaging do?
Well it:
1. Protects the product during transport
2. Holds the product
3. Advertises the product.
(this is as a general rule as some packaging does other things like keep food cool and stuff like that)
That's not a lot of things. In addition, we could use other things to hold the product. Like imagine going to the super market with a canvas bag to hold your cereal and then you can hold it in a jar when you get home. You can reuse the canvas bag. You can go to the butcher with a container designed to keep food cool, put all the meat you want in it and then put the container in the freezer. No need for plastic containers with are just gonna end up in land fill.
If a system like this could be implemented, then stuff would cost less and there would be much less waste. In addition, the retailer could order product in bulk and in a way that required less packaging like ordering 40 kg of oats in a canvas bag instead of 80 boxes of 500g oats. You'd save so much cardboard and the consumer would save money too! You could buy 1 cardboard sign to say what brand of oats they are and the consumer, the retailer and the world would all save!
You might say I'm being idealistic, but this isn't actually a new system. It was the previous system before all these boxes and packaging. In my mother's time, biscuits were sold individually in paper bags, and people who wanted lots, would bring their tins. Before that, cereals were sold by weight, and consumers would scoop the stuff they need. In fact if you could sell almost all supermarket products like this. Cleaning powders, liquids, and other chemicals or liquids could all be sold like this. Same with and sort of powders, cereals and other simlar products.
But this kind of system doesn't just stop at supermarkets. You know, that electronical waste is also a huge problem. Most of a computer don't change a lot over time, its only things like power supplies, hard drives, CPUs and video cards. All of which can be bought individually. However, parts cost so much these days that its easier and sometimes cheaper to buy a whole new computer! The entire old computer is thrown out. 99% of the computer is still good and can be used! Did you know copper is rare now because of all the electronics we use? Copper is in them all. When we thrown out an old electronic appliance, we throw out the copper. What a waste.
If industry actually made parts cheaper, we would consume copper a LOT slower and we'd still have just as fast and upgraded computer if we bought the parts individually. Better yet, the place you by computers from could have an electrical technician that could upgrade your computer in from of your eyes if you brought it over and asked for it!
This can also be applied for all the Ipads, Iphones and other smart technology. Sure they might not get thinner, but really, how thin do you need it? It sits in your pocket for goodness sake :P
This kind of system could be applied to almost any product! We'd save SOOOO much waste. Also we'd have to produce less, which means we'd useless resources and everyone would save money, and this means you'll have more money to spend on other things. Less use, means more savings.
Wouldn't it be nice?
Thing is, if we don't try something to try and stop the waste, we WILL EVENTUALLY RUN OUT. The world, just can't produce things at the rate we use them.
Someone is gonna have to change the way we do things or there are gonna have to be breaks and we'll have to break HARD. Last time I checked, braking hard can really really hurt.
So maybe one day I'll start a shop that sells stuff cheap and cuts back packaging.... we'll see. Anyway, keep this in mind :)
regards, Jonathan
So recently at Uni I was shown this video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLBE5QAYXp8
And aside from the annoying american accent of the speaker, her over use of loaded language and the simplistic and sometimes inaccurate explanations,
I TOTALLY AGREE WITH HER.
Basically what she said is that the way business uses resources at the moment it completely wasteful. We take our resources, we turn them into things we need, we buy the things we need, we use the things we need and all the rest if discarded.
So lets take a look at all the stuff we throw out:
Bottles, plastic bags, cardboard, broken plates, bowls and other cutlery, food that has gone bad, tissues, tins and various seeds.
So after a quick analyse of what we've actually thrown out I have come to a conclusion that 90% of it (or round abouts) is packaging. So this got me thinking even more, what exactly does packaging do?
Well it:
1. Protects the product during transport
2. Holds the product
3. Advertises the product.
(this is as a general rule as some packaging does other things like keep food cool and stuff like that)
That's not a lot of things. In addition, we could use other things to hold the product. Like imagine going to the super market with a canvas bag to hold your cereal and then you can hold it in a jar when you get home. You can reuse the canvas bag. You can go to the butcher with a container designed to keep food cool, put all the meat you want in it and then put the container in the freezer. No need for plastic containers with are just gonna end up in land fill.
If a system like this could be implemented, then stuff would cost less and there would be much less waste. In addition, the retailer could order product in bulk and in a way that required less packaging like ordering 40 kg of oats in a canvas bag instead of 80 boxes of 500g oats. You'd save so much cardboard and the consumer would save money too! You could buy 1 cardboard sign to say what brand of oats they are and the consumer, the retailer and the world would all save!
You might say I'm being idealistic, but this isn't actually a new system. It was the previous system before all these boxes and packaging. In my mother's time, biscuits were sold individually in paper bags, and people who wanted lots, would bring their tins. Before that, cereals were sold by weight, and consumers would scoop the stuff they need. In fact if you could sell almost all supermarket products like this. Cleaning powders, liquids, and other chemicals or liquids could all be sold like this. Same with and sort of powders, cereals and other simlar products.
But this kind of system doesn't just stop at supermarkets. You know, that electronical waste is also a huge problem. Most of a computer don't change a lot over time, its only things like power supplies, hard drives, CPUs and video cards. All of which can be bought individually. However, parts cost so much these days that its easier and sometimes cheaper to buy a whole new computer! The entire old computer is thrown out. 99% of the computer is still good and can be used! Did you know copper is rare now because of all the electronics we use? Copper is in them all. When we thrown out an old electronic appliance, we throw out the copper. What a waste.
If industry actually made parts cheaper, we would consume copper a LOT slower and we'd still have just as fast and upgraded computer if we bought the parts individually. Better yet, the place you by computers from could have an electrical technician that could upgrade your computer in from of your eyes if you brought it over and asked for it!
This can also be applied for all the Ipads, Iphones and other smart technology. Sure they might not get thinner, but really, how thin do you need it? It sits in your pocket for goodness sake :P
This kind of system could be applied to almost any product! We'd save SOOOO much waste. Also we'd have to produce less, which means we'd useless resources and everyone would save money, and this means you'll have more money to spend on other things. Less use, means more savings.
Wouldn't it be nice?
Thing is, if we don't try something to try and stop the waste, we WILL EVENTUALLY RUN OUT. The world, just can't produce things at the rate we use them.
Someone is gonna have to change the way we do things or there are gonna have to be breaks and we'll have to break HARD. Last time I checked, braking hard can really really hurt.
So maybe one day I'll start a shop that sells stuff cheap and cuts back packaging.... we'll see. Anyway, keep this in mind :)
regards, Jonathan
Monday, July 18, 2011
My Life over the last few....how long was it again?
Hello everyone. Its been a long time since I posted on this blog and its about time I gave everyone an update on what's been happening in my life. I've been very busy and I'm gonna take the time to say what I've done.
Right so here are the areas of my life that have changed:
University
Uni is really fun. For those of you how have forget, I'm doing Communication Design at Swinburne in Prahran. I did 4 subjects last semester and I'm doing another 4 this semester. The 4 subjects i've done are:
20th Century Design: Basically design history and design philosophy
Design Studio: An explorational way of tackling design, where us students are encouraged to experiment with different ways of drawing or making marks or whatever. Its mostly done without computers, which was interesting.
Introduction to Communication Design: The basics of communication through pictures and graphics. Also it turned out to be very explorational in its approach too.
Typography: The study of text and type and its history. Really quite interesting.
Overall I've had a great time time with in my classes. I've loved all my subjects, but I liked typography the least, and loved my tutors for both Design Studio and Introduction to Communication Design. I learned some great lessons from my Typography teachers and my Intro teacher about presentation and the development of graphic ideas. Things like I've learnt that i'm really very good at doing bold things, but I haven't really explored subtly. This was really good feeback as its dimension of design which I haven't really explored yet. I've also learn that the more you explore the better your design will be. Mrs Clarke always told me "Ideas are King", but this has never been so true till now as ideas in this course really are the most important thing. The second most important thing is execution. You might have a 20 million dollar idea, but thats useless if you don't turn it into something that is worth 20 million dollars.
Anyway I could rant on about Uni all day, so I'll leave it there.
Here were my marks:
20th Century Design: D
Design Studio: C
Introduction to Communication Design: C
Typography: C
I was happy with these marks, but I reckon I'm a D's student, so I'm going to try and aim higher.
Work
For those of you who do not know yet, I work at Subway in Prahran. Now I'm getting my own money I'm not getting mum to pay for things like transport or Uni course expenses (mostly printing costs). The idea of working there has been to work there after my days at Uni. Sadly though, I haven't had a day there where I've actually gone there after Uni. And I've only been doing night shifts or closing shifts, which end at midnight. The biggest issue is that there is no public transport at that time of night, so I have no way to get home except by parental or Taxi, and I hate to pay for Taxis and the parentals hate picking me up at those times.
Aside from that, the job is fun. People love me at subway. I get tips, people love my singing, and I'm not a slow worker. And the pay isn't bompletely horrible. Its about $14 an hour which isn't bad as my shifts are about 6 hours in length. The people there are also really nice, so aside from my shift times and lack of public transport, thumbs up all round.
In other good news, about 5 days ago I had an interview for Game Traders in Chadstone. The guy seemed to like me so I hope I get the job. Chadstone is a lot easier to get to incomparison to Prahran, so we'll see what happens. I mean he did ask me for a Resume and a cover letter so he must be pretty confident that I can do the job. FINGERS CROSSED!
Activities
Normally my activities would be Youth Group and Choir, however I've decided to take up a long awaited activity I've been meaning to try, a martial art. Luckily, one of my friends, Luke, goes and does Ninjutsu every week and I've been tagging along. It's lots of fun and there are enough lessons so I can go around Uni and work. Its not very expensive and its made me realise a few things about my body too. Oh yeah and it keeps me in good shape. Sadly though, becuase of work I've had to stop going to youth group as its on a friday night, which I suppose is a problem, but I've stopped learning new things at Youth Group anyway. Choir is heaps of fun as usual. I"m in a 5 person male singing group called Icthy Crochets, which is hilarious and heaps of fun. Yeah also these holidays I helped Viv with her year 12 film, which took up a good weeks worth of time, but was very fun.
Family life
My family life is a bit of a problem with me. As I grow up and gain my independance, my family (mainly my mother) grows more and more needy. She grows more needy because of Papa, who has been living with us for over a year now. Papa, with age, is getting increasingly slower, getting pain in new areas of his body and feeling even more scared about death and depressed about the fact that he cannot do all the things he has wanted to because his eyes, reflexes, muscles or mind just aren't up to the task. All he does all day is read, sleep, eat, drink alcohol and get confused because he doesn't know what new age stuff we are all taking about. This has been taxing on my mother and her nerves and time and because of which she has needed my help even more than ever. Along with the parties she has had to throw for myself, my dad and my older sister, she has been unable to find time for herself (as usual). This makes her stressed and annoyed at me, because I'm here most of the time. Dads is about as emotionally useful as pretty goldfish. In fact, he's even worse than a pretty goldfish as his clothes need washing and he needs to be fed. He talks a lot and works but can't really help mum deal with her emotional issues due to his inability to take any form of stress. So the job to help my mother goes to me. Which sucks as I don't want to do what I want with my life and don't really wanna be weighed down by my families issues.
Relationships
As usual my relationships with my friends has been really good. I'm happy I've been able to see them so much these holidays. I'm looking forward to catching up with my Uni friends a little more as now all my friends in highschool have gone back to school. So that will be good. As many of you might know I've got a girlfriend. She's brilliant for me and cares for me and what I do. We often have a great time together and we've been on about 5 or so dates by now and many other small get togethers. Her name is Talia and we communicate almost everyday. Its great. I love her and she loves me and its all gooey goodness. I mean there is a slight issue that she's 15, but I don't really find that an issue when we're together. I probably should date someone my age, but I didn't know her age when we started going out and she's probably the best girlfriend I've had so far as she has time for me, she organises get togethers and she actually cares about me, which is a massive improvement on the last two. SHE IS INTERESTED IN MY CARD GAME! (so obvoiusly, she must be the one, lol jokes). But yeah she's very good for me.
Personal Goals
As most of you know I've got quite a few personal goals in my life. lately I've been concentrating on my card game. This is mainly due to Card game day. Aside from that, the goal has been getting through my video games, books and other such things. Recently, however I made a goal to draw a super awesome comic/cookbook for my friend as she loves food. I dunno how long its gonna be, but I've set out the panels already and I'm pretty sure its gonna be awesome.
Hope thats enough information to inform you of my recent life.
Thanks for reading!
Right so here are the areas of my life that have changed:
University
Uni is really fun. For those of you how have forget, I'm doing Communication Design at Swinburne in Prahran. I did 4 subjects last semester and I'm doing another 4 this semester. The 4 subjects i've done are:
20th Century Design: Basically design history and design philosophy
Design Studio: An explorational way of tackling design, where us students are encouraged to experiment with different ways of drawing or making marks or whatever. Its mostly done without computers, which was interesting.
Introduction to Communication Design: The basics of communication through pictures and graphics. Also it turned out to be very explorational in its approach too.
Typography: The study of text and type and its history. Really quite interesting.
Overall I've had a great time time with in my classes. I've loved all my subjects, but I liked typography the least, and loved my tutors for both Design Studio and Introduction to Communication Design. I learned some great lessons from my Typography teachers and my Intro teacher about presentation and the development of graphic ideas. Things like I've learnt that i'm really very good at doing bold things, but I haven't really explored subtly. This was really good feeback as its dimension of design which I haven't really explored yet. I've also learn that the more you explore the better your design will be. Mrs Clarke always told me "Ideas are King", but this has never been so true till now as ideas in this course really are the most important thing. The second most important thing is execution. You might have a 20 million dollar idea, but thats useless if you don't turn it into something that is worth 20 million dollars.
Anyway I could rant on about Uni all day, so I'll leave it there.
Here were my marks:
20th Century Design: D
Design Studio: C
Introduction to Communication Design: C
Typography: C
I was happy with these marks, but I reckon I'm a D's student, so I'm going to try and aim higher.
Work
For those of you who do not know yet, I work at Subway in Prahran. Now I'm getting my own money I'm not getting mum to pay for things like transport or Uni course expenses (mostly printing costs). The idea of working there has been to work there after my days at Uni. Sadly though, I haven't had a day there where I've actually gone there after Uni. And I've only been doing night shifts or closing shifts, which end at midnight. The biggest issue is that there is no public transport at that time of night, so I have no way to get home except by parental or Taxi, and I hate to pay for Taxis and the parentals hate picking me up at those times.
Aside from that, the job is fun. People love me at subway. I get tips, people love my singing, and I'm not a slow worker. And the pay isn't bompletely horrible. Its about $14 an hour which isn't bad as my shifts are about 6 hours in length. The people there are also really nice, so aside from my shift times and lack of public transport, thumbs up all round.
In other good news, about 5 days ago I had an interview for Game Traders in Chadstone. The guy seemed to like me so I hope I get the job. Chadstone is a lot easier to get to incomparison to Prahran, so we'll see what happens. I mean he did ask me for a Resume and a cover letter so he must be pretty confident that I can do the job. FINGERS CROSSED!
Activities
Normally my activities would be Youth Group and Choir, however I've decided to take up a long awaited activity I've been meaning to try, a martial art. Luckily, one of my friends, Luke, goes and does Ninjutsu every week and I've been tagging along. It's lots of fun and there are enough lessons so I can go around Uni and work. Its not very expensive and its made me realise a few things about my body too. Oh yeah and it keeps me in good shape. Sadly though, becuase of work I've had to stop going to youth group as its on a friday night, which I suppose is a problem, but I've stopped learning new things at Youth Group anyway. Choir is heaps of fun as usual. I"m in a 5 person male singing group called Icthy Crochets, which is hilarious and heaps of fun. Yeah also these holidays I helped Viv with her year 12 film, which took up a good weeks worth of time, but was very fun.
Family life
My family life is a bit of a problem with me. As I grow up and gain my independance, my family (mainly my mother) grows more and more needy. She grows more needy because of Papa, who has been living with us for over a year now. Papa, with age, is getting increasingly slower, getting pain in new areas of his body and feeling even more scared about death and depressed about the fact that he cannot do all the things he has wanted to because his eyes, reflexes, muscles or mind just aren't up to the task. All he does all day is read, sleep, eat, drink alcohol and get confused because he doesn't know what new age stuff we are all taking about. This has been taxing on my mother and her nerves and time and because of which she has needed my help even more than ever. Along with the parties she has had to throw for myself, my dad and my older sister, she has been unable to find time for herself (as usual). This makes her stressed and annoyed at me, because I'm here most of the time. Dads is about as emotionally useful as pretty goldfish. In fact, he's even worse than a pretty goldfish as his clothes need washing and he needs to be fed. He talks a lot and works but can't really help mum deal with her emotional issues due to his inability to take any form of stress. So the job to help my mother goes to me. Which sucks as I don't want to do what I want with my life and don't really wanna be weighed down by my families issues.
Relationships
As usual my relationships with my friends has been really good. I'm happy I've been able to see them so much these holidays. I'm looking forward to catching up with my Uni friends a little more as now all my friends in highschool have gone back to school. So that will be good. As many of you might know I've got a girlfriend. She's brilliant for me and cares for me and what I do. We often have a great time together and we've been on about 5 or so dates by now and many other small get togethers. Her name is Talia and we communicate almost everyday. Its great. I love her and she loves me and its all gooey goodness. I mean there is a slight issue that she's 15, but I don't really find that an issue when we're together. I probably should date someone my age, but I didn't know her age when we started going out and she's probably the best girlfriend I've had so far as she has time for me, she organises get togethers and she actually cares about me, which is a massive improvement on the last two. SHE IS INTERESTED IN MY CARD GAME! (so obvoiusly, she must be the one, lol jokes). But yeah she's very good for me.
Personal Goals
As most of you know I've got quite a few personal goals in my life. lately I've been concentrating on my card game. This is mainly due to Card game day. Aside from that, the goal has been getting through my video games, books and other such things. Recently, however I made a goal to draw a super awesome comic/cookbook for my friend as she loves food. I dunno how long its gonna be, but I've set out the panels already and I'm pretty sure its gonna be awesome.
Hope thats enough information to inform you of my recent life.
Thanks for reading!
Monday, May 16, 2011
Pokemon Hits and Misses part 1
I am an avid fan of Pokemon. I have played all the games except the Black and White (I'm yet to get a copy of it) and beaten them all. I've attempted to catch them and failed in every game. I'm not a pokenerd, however I do like competitive pokemon battling. There is still much I have to learn, but from what I do know, there are a few things in the pokemon world that seriously suck and somethings with are AWESOME.
This update is dedicated to that.
MISS
-Bidoof
Honestly, if people get paid to make up pokemon, the person who made this should give everyone who caught it, saw it and battled it a refund. It looks pretty terrible, its moves are pretty terrible and its name.....is so aweful it reminds me of an idiot. They should have named this pokemon "HerpaDerp".
And its evolution is even worse:
LOOK AT THIS THING! What is up with its eyebrows? Its fat and its also a water type. This is an insult to water pokemon. Its also really weak...
MISS
This update is dedicated to that.
MISS
-Bidoof
Honestly, if people get paid to make up pokemon, the person who made this should give everyone who caught it, saw it and battled it a refund. It looks pretty terrible, its moves are pretty terrible and its name.....is so aweful it reminds me of an idiot. They should have named this pokemon "HerpaDerp".
And its evolution is even worse:
LOOK AT THIS THING! What is up with its eyebrows? Its fat and its also a water type. This is an insult to water pokemon. Its also really weak...
MISS
- Mime Jr.
There is very little I have to say about this pokemon that can't be explained just by looking at it. Its pink. It's got twiggy arms. It looks like its wearing a skirt (as is about to evolve into Mr. Mime?). It looks like its got a blue pile of poo for a hat. If that isn't enough for you to hate it, its voice on the TV show is terrible and it follows around after Team rocket. Enough said?
MISS
- Wynaut
When I first see this pokemon I see two things. It stands on balls to hold itself up (impractical and possibly painful) and it's got a MASSIVE pimple. The next thing I see is that its tail has an eye on it. Aren't pokemon supposed to be wild animals? if so, why do Wynaut exist? It wouldn't be able to move away quickly enough to run from any kind of animal, if it tripped and fell it'd be in MASSIVE PAIN (and probably not be able to get back up again) and that eye on its tail is just waiting to be blinded. Also its blue, it would attract predators.
MISS
- Slaking
Slaking is a pokemon that supposed to be a sloth crossed with a gorilla, which in itself isn't a bad concept. However part of this pokemon's problem is its REALLY ANNOYING. Its annoying due to the fact that half of every battle you use it in it is "loafing around",which means it does NOTHING. Not only that but it evolves from one of the most pimping pokemon out there, Vigoroth. And you wanna know the most annoying thing? If it didn't sleep all the time, it'd quiet easily be the strongest normal type pokemon due to its INSANE HEALTH, INSANE attack and INCREDIBLE attack pool. But due to the fact it sleeps half the time, it's just plain stupid.
MISS
- Gulpin
Gulpin is an issue mainly cause it looks like a blob. Usually, this wouldn't be an issue, (Look at Ditto for example), but it doesn't make sense taht it can eat everything. Firstly, if you've ever seen it open its mouth, its mouth cavity takes up ALL OF THE SPACE INSIDE ITS TINY FRAME. It actually has no space for organs. Its pretty evident that its either a zombie or a freak of nature. Also, when its not eating, WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE IT'S TRYING TO KISS SOMETHING?
MISS
- Tangrowth
JON DISAPPROVES!
MISS (kinda)
- ICECREAM POKEMON!
At first I hated this pokemon. Its an icecream. It's not a pokemon. Its actually an icecream. It doesn't even look like anything besides an icecream. And it has a face. Its an icecream with a face (Watch out, it'll bite back), so its not like its even appetising. However, once I thought about it a bit I realised something. Its actaully hilarious. Imagine training this into a killing machine and winning with it. You'd be slaughtering your opponents....WITH.. AN... ICECREAM. It would be epic. However it sucks that "Lick" isn't super effective against it.
MISS
- WooBat
MISS
- IS THAT ELECTABUZZ?
So this is electabuzz's evolved form. The first problem with this is that it doesn't follow electabuzz's cool patterns. It's black stripe down the centre look pretty terrible and the black fur either side of it looks strange. the second and more important problem is WHAT THE HECK ARE THOSE THINGS COMING OUT OF ITS BACK? I think they are supposed to be electrical cables, but they look a tad too much like tenticles, which reminds me of various other things THAT SHOULDN'T BE MENTIONED, nor exist.
Thats it for now. Tell me which pokemon you hate too. :D
Saturday, May 14, 2011
POST TOMORROW
I'm sorry readers for not posting often. I'll post a post tomorrow after I get his essay in ORDER!
I'm thinking I'm gonna make the next post about the High and Lows of Pokemon.
I'm thinking I'm gonna make the next post about the High and Lows of Pokemon.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
So I'm green
DEAR READERS. PLEASE NOTE I'M BEING A PATHETIC EMOTIONAL TEENGER WHO IS VENTING THROUGH THE USE OF HIS BLOG. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ ANYTHING THAT IS TO DO WITH MY LACK OF GIRLFRIEND, BECAUSE YOU ARE SICK OF THIS LOVE SICK BASTARD GOING ON ABOUT IT, THEN PLEASE DON'T READ THIS.
(I will not think badly of you for doing so.)
It is a strange feeling to be jealous. However, I suppose I'm jealous with good reason. I say that only because, all things considered, jealousy is a somewhat natural response in the situation I'm in.
I'm jealous of one of my best friends because the relationship he's in appears so easy. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for him, (This is his first relationship) but the ease and speed of it is what I'm really annoyed about.
2 days ago he was at my house talking to me about this girl he got asked out by. He said they went on a date and while he enjoyed it, he was unsure about whether or not he really wanted to get involved in something so serious so quickly.
I'm not jealous of him because he's got a nice, intelligent girlfriend, but just the ease in which he's found himself in this relationship is annoying. And she asked him. That's important. I mean that means she wants him enough to actually get the courage to ask him out. It also means that she is willing to go out of her way to organise time to be together and drive the relationship. Its basically proof that she likes him.
I'm jealous because I'm absolutely busting to find a girl who likes me for who I am and who I can show I love them. I've always had to ask out girls I've liked and as a consiquence I'm the one driving the relationship. For the most part I don't mind that, but there comes a time where I wan to feel loved for what I do. When I needed that with my first girlfriend, I was denied it and we broke up. Since then I've been craving it. Craving the intimacy, the care someone has for me, the touch, ability to look into someone's eyes and know that the love I feel for her is also resiprocated in her towards me.
I know this sounds so cliche and "Forever alone"-ish, but its how I feel. What about me?
(I will not think badly of you for doing so.)
It is a strange feeling to be jealous. However, I suppose I'm jealous with good reason. I say that only because, all things considered, jealousy is a somewhat natural response in the situation I'm in.
I'm jealous of one of my best friends because the relationship he's in appears so easy. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for him, (This is his first relationship) but the ease and speed of it is what I'm really annoyed about.
2 days ago he was at my house talking to me about this girl he got asked out by. He said they went on a date and while he enjoyed it, he was unsure about whether or not he really wanted to get involved in something so serious so quickly.
I'm not jealous of him because he's got a nice, intelligent girlfriend, but just the ease in which he's found himself in this relationship is annoying. And she asked him. That's important. I mean that means she wants him enough to actually get the courage to ask him out. It also means that she is willing to go out of her way to organise time to be together and drive the relationship. Its basically proof that she likes him.
I'm jealous because I'm absolutely busting to find a girl who likes me for who I am and who I can show I love them. I've always had to ask out girls I've liked and as a consiquence I'm the one driving the relationship. For the most part I don't mind that, but there comes a time where I wan to feel loved for what I do. When I needed that with my first girlfriend, I was denied it and we broke up. Since then I've been craving it. Craving the intimacy, the care someone has for me, the touch, ability to look into someone's eyes and know that the love I feel for her is also resiprocated in her towards me.
I know this sounds so cliche and "Forever alone"-ish, but its how I feel. What about me?
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Poem - The Knight and the Damsel
The Knight and the Damsel
Dear friend, dear friend,
Dear friend of mine.
Sometimes I think I know,
What's in your muddled mind.
There are times at which,
I think I see,
What you want,
And what you want of me.
But then you say "I want you"
And next you say "I'm scared"
Yet you cling to me so deperately,
Because your dream has teared?
You have a knight, a noble one,
One of grace and trust,
But his shine can't compare to mine,
And neither can his thrust.
But I don't want to duel him down.
I might have tried to, once.
But my wits are sharper than my sword,
So I lost my ignorance.
But it's not all that's gone,
Another has evolved,
As my ignorance turned to wisdom,
My love for you dissolved.
It pains me to say it,
For it is sad but true.
Now I have no more love,
I only lust for you.
I even think I told you once.
I told you I not playing that game.
But you want me to play so much,
Because the world you're in is so tame.
I'm all for satisfaction,
But this is a trap.
I'd satisfy my body, not my heart,
Where's the real stisfaction in that?
My vision that keeps me shining,
My idea of what I want to be,
Would be contradicted and destroyed,
If I fulfilled your fantasy.
I know you long for someone else,
But that someone cannot be me.
You've got filled hands, an empty heart,
But that is all you see.
Dear friend, dear friend,
Dear friend of mine.
Sometimes I think I know,
What's in your muddled mind.
There are times at which,
I think I see,
What you want,
And what you want of me.
But then you say "I want you"
And next you say "I'm scared"
Yet you cling to me so deperately,
Because your dream has teared?
You have a knight, a noble one,
One of grace and trust,
But his shine can't compare to mine,
And neither can his thrust.
But I don't want to duel him down.
I might have tried to, once.
But my wits are sharper than my sword,
So I lost my ignorance.
But it's not all that's gone,
Another has evolved,
As my ignorance turned to wisdom,
My love for you dissolved.
It pains me to say it,
For it is sad but true.
Now I have no more love,
I only lust for you.
I even think I told you once.
I told you I not playing that game.
But you want me to play so much,
Because the world you're in is so tame.
I'm all for satisfaction,
But this is a trap.
I'd satisfy my body, not my heart,
Where's the real stisfaction in that?
My vision that keeps me shining,
My idea of what I want to be,
Would be contradicted and destroyed,
If I fulfilled your fantasy.
I know you long for someone else,
But that someone cannot be me.
You've got filled hands, an empty heart,
But that is all you see.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Lunch time FTW!
Lunch time is probably one of my favourite times of the day. It is good because it is only ever either busy (Due to family relatives coming over for a good time)or very peaceful and calm. And at lunch time all your thinking about is lunch. which is good.
It's better than dinner because at dinner you also feel inclined to sit round a table with your family and listen to what everyone has done that day. While this might seem better than lunch due to the social experience of your loving family, anyone who has lived in a family like mine (even for a day) would know dinner table conversation often ends up in a fight, an arguement, someone complaining about something you don't care about or people are too tired and grumpy to have a proper civilised meal. In addition, dinner conversation is completely subject to the what good shows are on the telly. If a good show is on, dinner table conversation will be completely muted in favour of whoever's face is on the screen. (However, in televisions defence, at least the face on the TV doesn't argue with you).
Lunch time, unlike other meals of the day, offers quiet time for reflection and idea generation, which as a creative thinker I find very valuable. It is at times like lunch time where I can come up with stories and concepts that help me realise things about myself and who I am. For some strange reason, lunch time is where these ideas come to me most clearly, and it is due to this personal phenomenon lunchtime gives me a greater amount of satisfaction in comparison to any other meal time.
Due to lunchtime I re-realised my belief that people are fundamentally good and that I have faith in humanity. I like making stories and coming up with ideas that make people value the world that they live in. Ultimately we're stuck in this world, so why focus on the negative if you don't have a positive to work towards? This is why I want people to see the positives in their live and appreciate them and I want to include that into all the creative work I do.
I hope by reading this you'll realise the value in a time of the day you probably didn't really think much about before. So, next time you find yourself munchin on deliciousness at (close to) midday, take a moment to admire the time you have to think.
In short, lunchtime FTW!
It's better than dinner because at dinner you also feel inclined to sit round a table with your family and listen to what everyone has done that day. While this might seem better than lunch due to the social experience of your loving family, anyone who has lived in a family like mine (even for a day) would know dinner table conversation often ends up in a fight, an arguement, someone complaining about something you don't care about or people are too tired and grumpy to have a proper civilised meal. In addition, dinner conversation is completely subject to the what good shows are on the telly. If a good show is on, dinner table conversation will be completely muted in favour of whoever's face is on the screen. (However, in televisions defence, at least the face on the TV doesn't argue with you).
Lunch time, unlike other meals of the day, offers quiet time for reflection and idea generation, which as a creative thinker I find very valuable. It is at times like lunch time where I can come up with stories and concepts that help me realise things about myself and who I am. For some strange reason, lunch time is where these ideas come to me most clearly, and it is due to this personal phenomenon lunchtime gives me a greater amount of satisfaction in comparison to any other meal time.
Due to lunchtime I re-realised my belief that people are fundamentally good and that I have faith in humanity. I like making stories and coming up with ideas that make people value the world that they live in. Ultimately we're stuck in this world, so why focus on the negative if you don't have a positive to work towards? This is why I want people to see the positives in their live and appreciate them and I want to include that into all the creative work I do.
I hope by reading this you'll realise the value in a time of the day you probably didn't really think much about before. So, next time you find yourself munchin on deliciousness at (close to) midday, take a moment to admire the time you have to think.
In short, lunchtime FTW!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
My conceptual Infinity.
Okay, so some of you might know that one of the concepts in a comic of mine (which I haven't drawn yet) is a concept called "Infinity".
I created the concept of infinity due to my belief that (at the time I made it) god shouldn't favour anything it creates over another thing it creates. Also, I thought that god should make sense and shouldn't confuse people, in the sense that it should want things of us without also giving us a reason.
The result:"Infinity"
"Infinity" is everything. It is everything and nothing at all times. It is constantly destroying and creating everything. It exists in all demensions and takes up all space and yet no space. It grows and shrinks at the same time. It contains all knowledge about everything.
Things about infinity:
1. It cannot have a point or a perspective on anything. It sees every possible perspective and hence it cannot be biased. Opinions can only be formed with some sort of bias. Therefor it cannot have an opinion.
2. It thinks about everything and yet it forgets everything constantly in the same instance.
3. In a sense infinity is more like a collection of everything and it doesn't really have a conscience or a conciousness. Conciousnesses exist within it, but it as a whole doesn't have a collective one.
4. Due to that it contains knowledge and thoughts, but it doesn't think.
5. Time exists within it and it controls the things within it. However time as a whole doesn't affect infinity. This is how its creation and destruction of things can come in waves in certain areas where time (that it created) is slowing itself down, yet somewhere else in Infinity time is probably getting faster.
6. Infinity isn't bound by the laws of the Universe, however the things it creates are. For example, Infinity isn't affected by gravity, however if it creates a planet, that planet will have a gravitational pull.
7. If infinity does bind itself through the laws of the universe, it can and will unbind itself from those laws. In addition it will simultaniously loosen those laws somewhere else within it.
Now I hope you have grasped that concept for the most part. This is how my brain made sense of how a biased god actually exists.
Step 1: Infinity creates something with a conciousness, they ability to create and the ability to survive live. It then creates space within Infinity where Infinity can't create or destroy things within it naturally (think of it like a barrier, if the barrier is broken then the space is subject to infinity's normal creation/destructive randomness). Then the Being that was created by infinity creates the rest of the universe how its biased self sees fit.
That is how I made sense of what I saw to be a flawed god. I actually really like the concept.
I created the concept of infinity due to my belief that (at the time I made it) god shouldn't favour anything it creates over another thing it creates. Also, I thought that god should make sense and shouldn't confuse people, in the sense that it should want things of us without also giving us a reason.
The result:"Infinity"
"Infinity" is everything. It is everything and nothing at all times. It is constantly destroying and creating everything. It exists in all demensions and takes up all space and yet no space. It grows and shrinks at the same time. It contains all knowledge about everything.
Things about infinity:
1. It cannot have a point or a perspective on anything. It sees every possible perspective and hence it cannot be biased. Opinions can only be formed with some sort of bias. Therefor it cannot have an opinion.
2. It thinks about everything and yet it forgets everything constantly in the same instance.
3. In a sense infinity is more like a collection of everything and it doesn't really have a conscience or a conciousness. Conciousnesses exist within it, but it as a whole doesn't have a collective one.
4. Due to that it contains knowledge and thoughts, but it doesn't think.
5. Time exists within it and it controls the things within it. However time as a whole doesn't affect infinity. This is how its creation and destruction of things can come in waves in certain areas where time (that it created) is slowing itself down, yet somewhere else in Infinity time is probably getting faster.
6. Infinity isn't bound by the laws of the Universe, however the things it creates are. For example, Infinity isn't affected by gravity, however if it creates a planet, that planet will have a gravitational pull.
7. If infinity does bind itself through the laws of the universe, it can and will unbind itself from those laws. In addition it will simultaniously loosen those laws somewhere else within it.
Now I hope you have grasped that concept for the most part. This is how my brain made sense of how a biased god actually exists.
Step 1: Infinity creates something with a conciousness, they ability to create and the ability to survive live. It then creates space within Infinity where Infinity can't create or destroy things within it naturally (think of it like a barrier, if the barrier is broken then the space is subject to infinity's normal creation/destructive randomness). Then the Being that was created by infinity creates the rest of the universe how its biased self sees fit.
That is how I made sense of what I saw to be a flawed god. I actually really like the concept.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
This made me happy
Frommy good friend Adrian:
"anyway bud, world is full of cynics who assume a positive outlook means you are just some stupid kid, you just gota prepare for trouble, make sure you ignore it all and do what you want, when you gotta family make it double, cause the person you are when you date should be who you stay, to protect your world from devestation.
Try not to be too offensive and unit all people within your nation not divide and create hate, because the bad that is found in truth and love is always better than living a lie, so extend your reach to the stars above and try and live life to the full at the speed of light with your positive outlook, just remember, when everything goes wrong don't surrender now prepare to fight
Meowth thats right"
"anyway bud, world is full of cynics who assume a positive outlook means you are just some stupid kid, you just gota prepare for trouble, make sure you ignore it all and do what you want, when you gotta family make it double, cause the person you are when you date should be who you stay, to protect your world from devestation.
Try not to be too offensive and unit all people within your nation not divide and create hate, because the bad that is found in truth and love is always better than living a lie, so extend your reach to the stars above and try and live life to the full at the speed of light with your positive outlook, just remember, when everything goes wrong don't surrender now prepare to fight
Meowth thats right"
Monday, March 14, 2011
So its official
Believe it or not, the new GF and I have broken up.
Yes. Officially.
Why?
She didn't really have time for a relationship.
Do I detect a sense of deja vu? (Rebecca and Max?)
Oh well. I guess this is life for you. When life gives you goodness, take it. When it gives you shit, take it graciously then discard it carefully when you're alone.
What do I feel? Well simply its a mix of disappointment due to not being able to do everything I envisioned and "Figures". Yes, I expected this somewhat. I knew as soon as she told me that she was so busy, I knew I'd never be able to spend time with her.
Which is why, stupidly, I texted her almost daily to see if I could see her.
The problem is, I really like her and I still want to get to know her better. She seems so cool and I know, if given the chance, we can be really good friends. (Or more than friends is what I hoped)
It's such a shame that time was what ended this. I really didn't want it to end this way. While I think at the moment I'd rather have had a massive fight, I know I'm not thinking rationally. But I'm not satisfied with this...
And that means its gonna be harder for me to get over this.
What does one do in this situation? Bite the bullet. Let it go and just continue with life. Life has this amazing tendency to give you enough to make you happy for awhile and then undermine it. When life gives you the finger, there is no point getting angry. You can't fight life. It'll only punish you. You've just gotta take it in your stride and continue.
My older sister believes that if the GF didn't have time for me and won't make time for me then she's not worth it. In a way I think she's right and yet at the same time, I think she's wrong.
I just hope that eventually the now Ex2 will still want me and then she'll have time for me and then all my hopes and plans won't got to waste.
Anyway, its late and I should sleep. I'll catch you all later.
Jonathan,
Signing out.
Yes. Officially.
Why?
She didn't really have time for a relationship.
Do I detect a sense of deja vu? (Rebecca and Max?)
Oh well. I guess this is life for you. When life gives you goodness, take it. When it gives you shit, take it graciously then discard it carefully when you're alone.
What do I feel? Well simply its a mix of disappointment due to not being able to do everything I envisioned and "Figures". Yes, I expected this somewhat. I knew as soon as she told me that she was so busy, I knew I'd never be able to spend time with her.
Which is why, stupidly, I texted her almost daily to see if I could see her.
The problem is, I really like her and I still want to get to know her better. She seems so cool and I know, if given the chance, we can be really good friends. (Or more than friends is what I hoped)
It's such a shame that time was what ended this. I really didn't want it to end this way. While I think at the moment I'd rather have had a massive fight, I know I'm not thinking rationally. But I'm not satisfied with this...
And that means its gonna be harder for me to get over this.
What does one do in this situation? Bite the bullet. Let it go and just continue with life. Life has this amazing tendency to give you enough to make you happy for awhile and then undermine it. When life gives you the finger, there is no point getting angry. You can't fight life. It'll only punish you. You've just gotta take it in your stride and continue.
My older sister believes that if the GF didn't have time for me and won't make time for me then she's not worth it. In a way I think she's right and yet at the same time, I think she's wrong.
I just hope that eventually the now Ex2 will still want me and then she'll have time for me and then all my hopes and plans won't got to waste.
Anyway, its late and I should sleep. I'll catch you all later.
Jonathan,
Signing out.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
What we might not know about Charlie Sheen
Hey everyone, I've been watching a lot of Charlie Sheen interviews lately and several thoughts as to why he is acting the way he is came to me.
Here is the list:
1. His mind is actually programmed to run 4 times faster than normal people's minds. However this has caused him to be particularly spontanious and implusive due to the fact his mind hasn't been adjusted to be able to process all the stuff that comes out of his mouth.
2. He's secretly the love child of Chuck Norris and a tiger.
3. He's a super powered extraterestial from Mars, much like superman.
4. He's the Messiah of Scientology "I'm
5. He won "the game". "I'm Bi-Winning!"
6. He watched this and started mimicing Karl. (Two and a half Llamas)
7. He has a telepathic connection with the sun, who is controlling his mind due to the fact that its very lonely in space and the sun never really gets to party. This is the fuel for his "passion"
8. He's become addicted to video games
9. He drunk a can of powerthrist.
10. He's been having dreams that he's a fighter jet, and due to his lack of sleep he now can distingush between his dreams and reality. "I will destroy you in the air and deploy my ordanence to the ground" Perhaps he's made of biceps?
Charlie Sheen, your better on the net than you ever were on two and a half men.
Hope you life turns into the life you want it too.
Here is the list:
1. His mind is actually programmed to run 4 times faster than normal people's minds. However this has caused him to be particularly spontanious and implusive due to the fact his mind hasn't been adjusted to be able to process all the stuff that comes out of his mouth.
2. He's secretly the love child of Chuck Norris and a tiger.
3. He's a super powered extraterestial from Mars, much like superman.
4. He's the Messiah of Scientology "I'm
5. He won "the game". "I'm Bi-Winning!"
6. He watched this and started mimicing Karl. (Two and a half Llamas)
7. He has a telepathic connection with the sun, who is controlling his mind due to the fact that its very lonely in space and the sun never really gets to party. This is the fuel for his "passion"
8. He's become addicted to video games
9. He drunk a can of powerthrist.
10. He's been having dreams that he's a fighter jet, and due to his lack of sleep he now can distingush between his dreams and reality. "I will destroy you in the air and deploy my ordanence to the ground" Perhaps he's made of biceps?
Charlie Sheen, your better on the net than you ever were on two and a half men.
Hope you life turns into the life you want it too.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Some more poetry
I find that whenever I get too tired depressing poetry seems really easy to write. So this if what I wrote yesterday night.
The New Love
His love's more fear than love,
His eyes show passion and pain.
He's loving cause he's hurting.
He's loving to feel sane.
He hasn't felt the same,
Since the first one walked away.
She walked off on rainbows,
His world's now filled with gray.
And so he loves me desperately.
He kisses me in haste,
He touches me softly, yet frantic,
Hoping this isn't a waste.
I know he's craving colour.
He wants his colour back.
She gingerly stole it from his heart,
And its slowly turning black.
And while I love this man,
I don't know what he sees.
Does he love me for me?
Or the fantasy he needs?
And to contrast my depressing one, a poem for hope.
I Want
I want a girl who knows me,
I want a girl who cares.
I want a girl whose interesting.
Who'll catch me unawares.
I want a girl who loves,
who'll hug me whenever she can,
who'll tell me that I'm lovely,
Who'll think that I'm her man.
Who'll tell me there is no one else,
Who'll show it through who she is,
Who'll tell me she wants to be my wife,
Who says that, for me, she loves.
For the record, I like the first one, but I think the second is rather rubbish. But its here.
The New Love
His love's more fear than love,
His eyes show passion and pain.
He's loving cause he's hurting.
He's loving to feel sane.
He hasn't felt the same,
Since the first one walked away.
She walked off on rainbows,
His world's now filled with gray.
And so he loves me desperately.
He kisses me in haste,
He touches me softly, yet frantic,
Hoping this isn't a waste.
I know he's craving colour.
He wants his colour back.
She gingerly stole it from his heart,
And its slowly turning black.
And while I love this man,
I don't know what he sees.
Does he love me for me?
Or the fantasy he needs?
And to contrast my depressing one, a poem for hope.
I Want
I want a girl who knows me,
I want a girl who cares.
I want a girl whose interesting.
Who'll catch me unawares.
I want a girl who loves,
who'll hug me whenever she can,
who'll tell me that I'm lovely,
Who'll think that I'm her man.
Who'll tell me there is no one else,
Who'll show it through who she is,
Who'll tell me she wants to be my wife,
Who says that, for me, she loves.
For the record, I like the first one, but I think the second is rather rubbish. But its here.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
When people say I love god, i say:
I was reading facebook recently and someone's post ended in "I love God!"
As per usual this got me thinking.
This is what I love:
I love the freedom to believe what I want to believe.
I love the freedom to find what I think is right and to follow it how I wish.
I love to be able to learn from others and form my own opinion of what is right and wrong.
I love questioning people about their beliefs and trying to get them to think about their spiritual position. (I don't do this in the hope of converting anyone, but rather to help them realise their own beliefs)
I love the feel of existing and the journey that is to find myself spiritually, emotionally and mentally.
I love being sure of something and finding things I consider true.
I love feeling the support of whatever I feel is out there. I feel that I'm part of it and I feel it supports everything, including me.
I love being able to decide that if I there is a god, i don't think it loves anything, nor feels such specific emotions. I also love the fact that I can come up with other theories, like an infinite source of everything which naturally creates and destroys things at random. If a god did exist, it'd have to be able to somewhat control the infinite source of everything, or at least harness it.
I like being able to consider alternate religions and being able to see the good in what a lot of people try to do with religion.
I love appreciating the world I live in and regardless of its origin(whether it was created or it just happened) I'm thankful I live in such a naturally beautiful world.
I love the fact that everyone is different and there is so much variation.
I love that certain people are similar and have things in common.
I love that the world is so complicated and detailed and yet I also love the simple things.
I love the ability to touch, smell, taste, hear and see all things (from a pile of dog shit to the most beautiful things in life)
I love the fact that good and evil are based upon perspective and that there are lots of shades of grey.
I love being about to feel emotions.
I love the people in my life.
I love being able to control myself and tolerate others.
I love being able to develop and change and be able to try and become the person I want to be.
I love that I can learn from my mistakes and hardship and the mistakes and hardship of others.
I love feeling satisfied.
I love the ability to love things.
I love the fact that I have been given both faults and talents.
I love the fact I'm not perfect, but I can strive to become better.
I love being able to think and to dream and to get caught up in my own thoughts.
Sometimes I love being able to do nothing and know that despite the fact I'm not doing anything, everything will be okay.
And you know what? I love being me and for the most part, I love who I am. (I don't really care if you don't like me the way I am, because a simple fact of life is that not everyone can get along)
Feeling pretty calm and peaceful,
Regards,
Jonathan
As per usual this got me thinking.
This is what I love:
I love the freedom to believe what I want to believe.
I love the freedom to find what I think is right and to follow it how I wish.
I love to be able to learn from others and form my own opinion of what is right and wrong.
I love questioning people about their beliefs and trying to get them to think about their spiritual position. (I don't do this in the hope of converting anyone, but rather to help them realise their own beliefs)
I love the feel of existing and the journey that is to find myself spiritually, emotionally and mentally.
I love being sure of something and finding things I consider true.
I love feeling the support of whatever I feel is out there. I feel that I'm part of it and I feel it supports everything, including me.
I love being able to decide that if I there is a god, i don't think it loves anything, nor feels such specific emotions. I also love the fact that I can come up with other theories, like an infinite source of everything which naturally creates and destroys things at random. If a god did exist, it'd have to be able to somewhat control the infinite source of everything, or at least harness it.
I like being able to consider alternate religions and being able to see the good in what a lot of people try to do with religion.
I love appreciating the world I live in and regardless of its origin(whether it was created or it just happened) I'm thankful I live in such a naturally beautiful world.
I love the fact that everyone is different and there is so much variation.
I love that certain people are similar and have things in common.
I love that the world is so complicated and detailed and yet I also love the simple things.
I love the ability to touch, smell, taste, hear and see all things (from a pile of dog shit to the most beautiful things in life)
I love the fact that good and evil are based upon perspective and that there are lots of shades of grey.
I love being about to feel emotions.
I love the people in my life.
I love being able to control myself and tolerate others.
I love being able to develop and change and be able to try and become the person I want to be.
I love that I can learn from my mistakes and hardship and the mistakes and hardship of others.
I love feeling satisfied.
I love the ability to love things.
I love the fact that I have been given both faults and talents.
I love the fact I'm not perfect, but I can strive to become better.
I love being able to think and to dream and to get caught up in my own thoughts.
Sometimes I love being able to do nothing and know that despite the fact I'm not doing anything, everything will be okay.
And you know what? I love being me and for the most part, I love who I am. (I don't really care if you don't like me the way I am, because a simple fact of life is that not everyone can get along)
Feeling pretty calm and peaceful,
Regards,
Jonathan
Friday, February 11, 2011
Optimistic Pessimism
Firstly I'd like to say that while I write this I"m drinking Malibo, which is delicious (coconut flavoured alcohol) mainly cause its weak and mum opened it and didn't like it.
Lately I realised that I've been saying one of my life mottos a lot. Its a pretty good motto and has helped me greatly in life.
Here it is: "Expect the worst, but hope for the best"
Now I said it, your probably wondering what this all means. This is what it boils down to.
Dream for the stars, try and reach them, but don't count on achieving them. Don't put all your eggs in one basket if your not prepared to let all the eggs break.
While it seems pretty bleak its a good rule.
It prevents you from overcommiting yourself to something emotionally, so if you happen to lose it it doesn't feel as though your entire world of blown up dreams is crashing down.
On the other hand it also makes you try and get the best you possibly can, because you hope you can do it and can see yourself trying to do it. When you do try, you work hard toward the highest goal you know you can attain and then you try and work higher.
However, if you fail, no harm done.
Works for jobs, life and relationships.
Regards,
Jon
Lately I realised that I've been saying one of my life mottos a lot. Its a pretty good motto and has helped me greatly in life.
Here it is: "Expect the worst, but hope for the best"
Now I said it, your probably wondering what this all means. This is what it boils down to.
Dream for the stars, try and reach them, but don't count on achieving them. Don't put all your eggs in one basket if your not prepared to let all the eggs break.
While it seems pretty bleak its a good rule.
It prevents you from overcommiting yourself to something emotionally, so if you happen to lose it it doesn't feel as though your entire world of blown up dreams is crashing down.
On the other hand it also makes you try and get the best you possibly can, because you hope you can do it and can see yourself trying to do it. When you do try, you work hard toward the highest goal you know you can attain and then you try and work higher.
However, if you fail, no harm done.
Works for jobs, life and relationships.
Regards,
Jon
Thursday, January 27, 2011
The Balancing act - Management lesson
Life is all about balance. Right?
I've come to think that its less about balance and more about placement. "Placement?" you probably ask. "What do you mean by placement?"
Now for those of you who like tetris (I know there are a few) life is more like a game of tetris. Imagine that the tetris board is the amount of time you have and the pieces are the amount of activities you have or want to do. Whenever a new acitivity comes along you must fit it within the amount of time you have.
Ideally, I prefer to have things on. However I also like my relaxation time. I must fit both within my time. Not only that but household jobs, education commitments, social commitments and spending time with friends all clutter up my tetris board.
Thing is, I'm not very good at playing this kind of Tetris, as my pieces don't often offer a perfect fit, as I often forget things, turn up late, or have to cancel at the last minute.
This also means that sometimes I don't get to do things I want to do. Like draw or read or just bum around. These might not seem like much, but to me their very important. THey help me establish who I am creatively and my creativity is a huge part of who I am. Something i'm probably not giving enough time. (but holidays are also good to see friends and I've been doing that)
Speaking of which I had better fit sleep in there somewhere. Sleep is a magical little piece. It gets smaller on demand, with the occasional side effect of warping everything. But for the most part it's very handy.
This is one of the skills I need to work on this year. Getting better at organisational Tetris. Although it'll be easier once I get a job and start uni, I'mpretty sure for me, this is a difficult task.
Never the less, improving in this area is what this year is all about.
Wish me luck.
I've come to think that its less about balance and more about placement. "Placement?" you probably ask. "What do you mean by placement?"
Now for those of you who like tetris (I know there are a few) life is more like a game of tetris. Imagine that the tetris board is the amount of time you have and the pieces are the amount of activities you have or want to do. Whenever a new acitivity comes along you must fit it within the amount of time you have.
Ideally, I prefer to have things on. However I also like my relaxation time. I must fit both within my time. Not only that but household jobs, education commitments, social commitments and spending time with friends all clutter up my tetris board.
Thing is, I'm not very good at playing this kind of Tetris, as my pieces don't often offer a perfect fit, as I often forget things, turn up late, or have to cancel at the last minute.
This also means that sometimes I don't get to do things I want to do. Like draw or read or just bum around. These might not seem like much, but to me their very important. THey help me establish who I am creatively and my creativity is a huge part of who I am. Something i'm probably not giving enough time. (but holidays are also good to see friends and I've been doing that)
Speaking of which I had better fit sleep in there somewhere. Sleep is a magical little piece. It gets smaller on demand, with the occasional side effect of warping everything. But for the most part it's very handy.
This is one of the skills I need to work on this year. Getting better at organisational Tetris. Although it'll be easier once I get a job and start uni, I'mpretty sure for me, this is a difficult task.
Never the less, improving in this area is what this year is all about.
Wish me luck.
Monday, January 17, 2011
How to win at YuGiOh.
I’m doing this to prove how simple it is to become very good at YuGiOh.
To win at YuGiOh, or any other game, you’ve got to understand the way it is possible to win the game. In YuGiOh, to win you game you must reduce your opponent’s life points to zero. In order to do this you usually have to attack your opponent with a strong monster or constantly kill of their smaller monster with your bigger monster. (as you cannot attack you opponent while he has monsters on the field)
This leads to strategy number 1:
• HAVE A MASSIVE MONSTER THAT DOESN’T DIE, GET IT OUT ASAP and BEAT THEIR FACE IN!
This strategy is pretty straight forward. Find some way to special summon (cause no-one bothers normal summoning things these days) a creature stronger than any creature in your opponent’s deck and don’t let it die. (Try and find a creature that isn’t affected by spells or traps to make it even more indestructible). A really good Massive Monster deck wins on their first turn, so they’re opponent can’t do anything.
However, this strategy is often beaten by Control based strategies. These are usually the all rounder style strategies. This is due to the fact that control based strategies don’t rely heavily on having the monster with the highest attack, but rather have spells and traps that can easily deal with monsters. They are particularly good against Massive Monster strategies as most massive monsters in the game can be easily removed by a simple trap and leave your opponent defenseless and out of resources (they usually pour all their resources into getting out their massive creature). Control based strategies also rely on stopping your opponent’s spells and traps and often need cards like Mystical Space Typhoon to stop dying by a crushing trap or continuous magic card. However control strategies still need to get out some kind of large-ish creature to make sure that your opponent’s 4 star creatures can’t kill your creatures. When I turned my zombie deck into a controlling style strategy, I hardly ever lost a game. My win rate was about 9/10 games.
Another popular strategy is Combo based strategies. These strategies often rely on a few copies of very important cards, which, when combined are insanely strong. However, their biggest weakness is Control style decks, as the control decks are often able to remove the combo before the combo deck can pull it off. An example of a combo that works is a 2x Zombie Master/ Cannon Soldier deck which creates an infinite combo allowing you to sacrifice creatures indefinitely and deal damage to your opponent for every creature you sacrifice (winning you the game instantly).
Despite control style strategies being very powerful and flexible, Evasive decks can often evade control and death and win the game through creature abilities. A good example of this is the Rock based Flip decks, which use puny creatures in defense mode and prevent your opponent from attacking them or you. They stall using cards like Ordeal of the Traveller (which is SUPER STUPID OVERPOWERED) and Swords of Revealing light and then keep flipping up their monsters to return monsters to your hand and slowly kill you with direct damage. Evasive decks are particularly good because most monster killing cards only affect face up creatures. Because these creatures are in face down defense mode they can’t be killed by the control style cards. These decks are by far the toughest decks to beat, as they warp the typical way to win the game, so it no longer becomes a test of who is attacking with the best monster but instead is a test of whether or not the Evasive strategy can get itself going before it loses. After a certain time, these evasive decks become pretty much unbeatable, so watch out for them. Luckily cards like Nobelman of Crossout and Divine (punishment or judgment or something) stop these evasive decks from winning.
The second last strategy is relatively rare, but still used. It’s a Lock Down strategy. This strategy is basically playing a bunch of cards that prevent your opponent from playing any spells or traps and then stopping them from being able to stop you. The best way to combat these strategies is have Monsters that have abilities that kill your opponent’s monsters or remove them from the game.
The final strategy is very rare; it’s an Alternate Winning Condition strategy. These strategies rely on cards like Exodia, the Forbidden One and Final Countdown to let them able to win a different way from normal. The best way to counter this strategy is with some good spell and trap negating cards or kill your opponent quickly. They’re not bad against Evasive decks.
Just a general note: If you want to become a pro in YuGiOh, you’ve got to be committed and willing to spend lots of money. Just like a Car racer, it doesn’t matter how good the racer is, if he doesn’t have a car that’s up to scratch with the rest of the competition he simply will not be able to go as fast and will lose. This just like YuGiOh, if you are not willing to spend big money to buy the best cards, you will lose to decks with better cards. That’s just the sad fact. This is something I was never willing to do, as, after all they’re just piece of cardboard.
To win at YuGiOh, or any other game, you’ve got to understand the way it is possible to win the game. In YuGiOh, to win you game you must reduce your opponent’s life points to zero. In order to do this you usually have to attack your opponent with a strong monster or constantly kill of their smaller monster with your bigger monster. (as you cannot attack you opponent while he has monsters on the field)
This leads to strategy number 1:
• HAVE A MASSIVE MONSTER THAT DOESN’T DIE, GET IT OUT ASAP and BEAT THEIR FACE IN!
This strategy is pretty straight forward. Find some way to special summon (cause no-one bothers normal summoning things these days) a creature stronger than any creature in your opponent’s deck and don’t let it die. (Try and find a creature that isn’t affected by spells or traps to make it even more indestructible). A really good Massive Monster deck wins on their first turn, so they’re opponent can’t do anything.
However, this strategy is often beaten by Control based strategies. These are usually the all rounder style strategies. This is due to the fact that control based strategies don’t rely heavily on having the monster with the highest attack, but rather have spells and traps that can easily deal with monsters. They are particularly good against Massive Monster strategies as most massive monsters in the game can be easily removed by a simple trap and leave your opponent defenseless and out of resources (they usually pour all their resources into getting out their massive creature). Control based strategies also rely on stopping your opponent’s spells and traps and often need cards like Mystical Space Typhoon to stop dying by a crushing trap or continuous magic card. However control strategies still need to get out some kind of large-ish creature to make sure that your opponent’s 4 star creatures can’t kill your creatures. When I turned my zombie deck into a controlling style strategy, I hardly ever lost a game. My win rate was about 9/10 games.
Another popular strategy is Combo based strategies. These strategies often rely on a few copies of very important cards, which, when combined are insanely strong. However, their biggest weakness is Control style decks, as the control decks are often able to remove the combo before the combo deck can pull it off. An example of a combo that works is a 2x Zombie Master/ Cannon Soldier deck which creates an infinite combo allowing you to sacrifice creatures indefinitely and deal damage to your opponent for every creature you sacrifice (winning you the game instantly).
Despite control style strategies being very powerful and flexible, Evasive decks can often evade control and death and win the game through creature abilities. A good example of this is the Rock based Flip decks, which use puny creatures in defense mode and prevent your opponent from attacking them or you. They stall using cards like Ordeal of the Traveller (which is SUPER STUPID OVERPOWERED) and Swords of Revealing light and then keep flipping up their monsters to return monsters to your hand and slowly kill you with direct damage. Evasive decks are particularly good because most monster killing cards only affect face up creatures. Because these creatures are in face down defense mode they can’t be killed by the control style cards. These decks are by far the toughest decks to beat, as they warp the typical way to win the game, so it no longer becomes a test of who is attacking with the best monster but instead is a test of whether or not the Evasive strategy can get itself going before it loses. After a certain time, these evasive decks become pretty much unbeatable, so watch out for them. Luckily cards like Nobelman of Crossout and Divine (punishment or judgment or something) stop these evasive decks from winning.
The second last strategy is relatively rare, but still used. It’s a Lock Down strategy. This strategy is basically playing a bunch of cards that prevent your opponent from playing any spells or traps and then stopping them from being able to stop you. The best way to combat these strategies is have Monsters that have abilities that kill your opponent’s monsters or remove them from the game.
The final strategy is very rare; it’s an Alternate Winning Condition strategy. These strategies rely on cards like Exodia, the Forbidden One and Final Countdown to let them able to win a different way from normal. The best way to counter this strategy is with some good spell and trap negating cards or kill your opponent quickly. They’re not bad against Evasive decks.
Just a general note: If you want to become a pro in YuGiOh, you’ve got to be committed and willing to spend lots of money. Just like a Car racer, it doesn’t matter how good the racer is, if he doesn’t have a car that’s up to scratch with the rest of the competition he simply will not be able to go as fast and will lose. This just like YuGiOh, if you are not willing to spend big money to buy the best cards, you will lose to decks with better cards. That’s just the sad fact. This is something I was never willing to do, as, after all they’re just piece of cardboard.
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